Soul Searching...

As it has been over a month since I last posted on here, I figured I had better get to writing...

So much is going on...so much has happened...my life is a whirlwind, and I am most definitely caught up in it.

Some days I feel like I could take on the world. Others I question everything I've done, said, or felt, but I'm fairly positive that I am not the only person on the planet who feels this way...

I have had to do some serious soul searching recently. I am assuming when I find what I am looking for, or when it surprises the crap out of me and says, "Hey! Here's what you are supposed to do!", it will be obvious. It will slap me in the face. It will grab ahold of my shoulders and shake me until I say, "Okay! Okay! I get it!". Of course, life is full of assumptions.

During this process, I have come up with a few things I want to do. Some I have never done, some I used to and want to do again. Some are fears I want to conquer.

My life "to do" list, so to speak:

1. Play the piano again. It's been 20 years since I've sat down and played...I think its time I wake that musician inside of me.

2. Sing. Not just in my car. Not just when I'm by myself cleaning. I will sing in front of someone. I apologize in advance to whoever ends up being the lucky one...

3. Run a 5K. Or jog. I suppose it depends on your definition of running. According to mine, I'll be running...like Forest...

4. Ride RAGBRAI. I've wanted to do this since I was in high school. Now accepting applications to be my support crew...

5. Eat alone in a new restaurant once a month. Without a lot of explanation, I will pull a "Hope Floats" moment and be the mysterious stranger, sitting alone, and owning it...

6. Grow flowers. Sounds crazy, but I've never been able to keep a flower garden going. Veggies? Fine. But flowers/plants are my kryptonite.

7. See the ocean. I've flown over it...been to Florida, but I've never put my toes in it. I don't want to swim in it (something might bite me). Just feel it...smell it...

8. Go to Hawaii. Someday. It's the plane ride that frightens the crap out of me. Drug me, beer me...just somebody get me there.

9. Learn how to play the guitar. There's just something extremely soulful...sexy...about a guitar.

10. Eat fish, and like it. Just the thought makes me gag, but I'm not going to quit. I will keep trying it...maybe when I make it to Hawaii I'll try something fresh and fall in love.

To be continued...